Bored because I have nothing to do but too lazy to start anything. I can’t be the only one.
Monthly Archives: September 2012
Fat vs. Muscle
ATruth
Knowledge and Wisdom
Stupid Imagination
Listen
Memories
“Some things you canāt go back to, some things need left alone
Donāt mess with memories of a life passed on
Oh some things you canāt go back to ’cause you let them slip away” ~Lyrics by Rosi Golan
Of late, Iāve been reading old emails and blog posts and journeyingĀ back through the past 3 years of my life and itās all made me think andĀ then sit up and think –Ā nostalgia is not always a good thing.
Donate
Crunch
Le Sigh
Disagree
Everybody Hates It
Love
You donāt get to choose, you just fall for someone. And you get this person whoās all right and wrong at the same time. Sometimes you love them so much, and other times they drive you completely insane, and no one can explain it. But the reason itās so confusing is its love, and if love didnāt have challenges, what would be the point? No one said falling in love was going to be easy. There will be tears, laughter, anger, but itās when you want to be together despite it all, that you know it is true love.
A Horrible Truth
Here you are – hurting, waiting, wanting for something to change. You ask yourself about a hundred times, is it something you said? Maybe. And then you ask yourself a thousand more times, is it something you did? Possibly.
Here you are – this question must have crossed your mind more than a million times. āCause for the seventh or eighth or maybe even the ninth time, you toss and turn in the middle of the dark night, in a dark silent room, listening to the rhythm of your own breath. You inhale, then exhale. You feel your heart beating in your chest. Then the question once again arises in your mind that longs to rest. Why?
Ā Here you are –Ā continuing to believe one day, someday, somehow your patience, your willingness to endure and your days of hurting, of waiting, of wanting, youāll wake up to an end for all of those and a beginning of something better, something more.
Mind Blown
Reasons
Hidden
The Sound of Nature
Overtaken
Confusion is set within me.
I feel a desperate need to think with a clear head as thoughts start crossing my mind. Thoughts that make me feel as if I had no control.
I feel overtaken by everything that happens around me.
I start to realise that sometimes I need to clear the board again and start new. I know that I need to keep the good and delete the bad. It is hard for me to do that at times because emotions start to run through my veins. A deep silence within my heart and a pain that I cannot sustain. I see the hurt. The only thing crossing my mind is trying to heal the pain.
When I get hurt, I clam up and do not want to open up to anyone. I feel as if the world is closing on me and I have no room to breathe. No one to see. No one to even call upon.
I feel pain that has accumulated over the years and feel it has not diminished. I feel as if I have not learned a lesson because I allow this vicious cycle to happen. I need to put a stop to all the stupid nonsense that happens around me.
I know confusion in my life is not all about feelings and emotional state, it is about not having the clarity I need to be able to find the foundation of the pain.
IĀ know the foundation of my pain and itĀ is something that I am working on.
Confusion is temporary, as long as we know how to control it.