Out With The Old, In With The New

Happy New Year

So today is December 31, 2012 and we all know in just a few hours the year will come to a close and a new one will start. There is something about the first day of a new year that attracts us. In reality, we know that there’s no difference in this day than any other.

This year we were fed a steady-stream of end-of-the-world scenarios, including giant solar flares, planet-killing asteroids, and a calendar made by a civilization that couldn’t even foresee its own demise, let alone everyone elses’. There was no apocalypse. The world didn’t end.

What can I say about 2012 except it was great – it’s amazing how much can happen in one short year. Here’s to 2013!

Blurry

Blurry

I am sitting here trying so hard to breathe… trying hard to remember when it was when I last felt this way, this particular mix of feeling angry, hurt, and disappointed.

I keep looking in my memories for fragments of little things that would help me remember but all is blurry. Or is it all locked where my mind dares not wander?

I will just go to bed now. I don’t want thoughts that would trouble me. Just silence. I will not try to remember… not a thing… just blankness and blur… and sleep… and I don’t want the dreams.

Tomorrow, it will all be forgotten as it will mix with the blur and blend into the numbness.

And I will be ok like that…